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ltleangel067
Jun. 6th, 2004
01:08 pm
So yesterday Sara Sarah and I lol went to see harry potter!!!!!!!! and on the way up to the movie theater i saw my old p.e. teacher!! it was kinda weird but cool haven't seen her for a while! but the movie was really good! but kinda scary too lol. Then all 3 of us went over to samanthas house. Avi and bryan showed up and hung out for a bit... then Sarah Sam and I played paper rock scissors to see who would be the dd... i lost :( We then followed bryan and avi to this hotel and it was really awkword there so we left after like 5 min and followed them to a circle K and they got us drinks!! but i couldn't drink cause i was the DD but i did have a couple sips of sarahs!! it was soo good then we went to hanger park for like an hour and then we dropped sara off and went back to sams and slept. today we were all supposed to go to sunsplash but i decided not to go because i was too tired and didn't feel like being out in the heat all day and being sunburned. so i got STARBUCKS!! yummy and came home. Thats pretty much my day! and i just burned my thumb on my oven rack!! owy!!!! it hurts!
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tiredJun. 5th, 2004
12:23 am - YAY!
Today was soooo much fun! I woke up feeling a lot better then last night and then i was talking to sara online and we decided to go out to lunch at california pizza kitchen!!!!! it was soo good! and then i dropped her off and hung out at my house. then i went out to dinner with my family as a goodbye dinner type thing for scott cause he leaves tonight for china with mcc!!! then i went over to saras and swam with her, Raleigh, and Samantha!! we swam for a while with PETER! lol and then we went to david bukinghams house lol that was boring then we got in my car to go to wendys and i look down at my shorts and they are all wet from my swimsuite and it looked like i peed my pants lol it was so funny and then we got some food at wendys. Sara ur shoes were awesome!! VROOOOOOM! lol We went back to saras house and ate it. then we drove to sams house to get her stuff. the dances were amazing! back that ass up! lol Then sam and sara rode scooters up and down the street lol then chris and his friends came over and we went across the street and them and sam played basketball while we wondered around the park lol. then we hung outside of saras house with them and these guys in an older bmw pull up and like stop and then peel out and then turned around and did it again and then turned around and did it again! lol and then they were gone for a while but then they came back and just parked in front of the drive way lol and we were just standing there! it was very awkward lol and then they peeled out and left lol then i came home! but it was an awesome night!!!! :-)
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happyJun. 3rd, 2004
11:00 pm
Today started off good and ended like the rest...
I don't know why they stopped hanging out with me
Do they not like me anymore?
Are they mad at me?
Whats wrong with me?
Why am I always always the one who is left out!?
Why did things have to change?
How come they don't tell me things anymore! i have no idea whats going on in their lives!
How come they don't invite me to hang out with them?
Would they even notice if i didn't talk to them anymore?
I don't understand
I am so hurt
I am sick of acting like i'm fine because i'm not... so i'm not going to anymore
I don't know what to do
I feel like I never quite fit in Like I'm always a little out of place Sometimes I'm just barely hanging on Seems like I'm always fighting to be strong
To find somewhere that i belong!*
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
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rejectedJun. 2nd, 2004
04:01 pm - This sucks!!
Yeah this summer sucks... i started summer school today, which sucks on its own! i had to get up at 5:50! and then i get there and find out that i have mr. pond for my health teacher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it sucks soooooooooooooo much! i have had him freshman year, sophomore year and now summer school! it sucks like no other! and yet again i feel like i have no friends and the ones i do have don't want to hang out with me...except for like 3 of them. which makes me feel so sad, depressed, and annoyed. i don't get it uuuhh i hate this summer!!!!! and its only began! :'(
sadJun. 1st, 2004
06:02 pm
Hey guys! thought i'd try one of these journal things since everyone else has one lol. So far this summer has pretty much sucked. I haven't done anything really. I saw Raising Helen on friday, thats an awesome movie!! Everyone should go see that! Its histerical! i was laughing so hard! But the only other thing i have done is hung out with my neighbors a lot because no one ever calls me to hang out with them and i have like no friends. Yesterday we had a bbq and Terry, Becky, Jon (my neighbors) lyndsay (Jons gf), Adam (my brother) Meghan (his gf) and sarah (schroeder, my best friend) came over. We played basketball in the pool which was really fun, even though my team lost by 2 points! and then we ate and played games! Today wasn't the best i have been feeling really down and then sarah and i went to the mall and she cheered me up! but now i am feeling down again. And i start summer school tmrw which sucks ass!!!!! I have to get up soooooo early! but hopefully there will be some hot guys, but i doubt it. Tonight Summer Music Mania is on fox! Everyone watch it! I was there! maybe you'll see Samantha, Sarah, and I! but i doubt it cause i don't think a camera came around to us lol but still watch it it was good!!! well thats all for now..
Sometimes i feel like i never quite fit in, like i'm always a little out of place, somtimes i'm just barely hanging on, seems like i'm always fighting to be strong, to find somewhere that i belong
~Amy~